0152

I walk this line of scattering sound alone
hundreds and hundreds of egg-shells i walk
drowning myself deep in this breaking sound
echoing in the dark my breaking heart

-please stop tellin me to stop loving him just like that...please stop expecting me to stop thinking about it just like that...im only human..i have feelings too...in-case you forget...我也是人....

no longer know the definition of the word 'friend'..do friend(s) turn their back on you when ALL you need is a listenin ear?..do friend(s) mia like bubbles when ALL you need is some1 2b there?..some1 said 'i duno how 2 approach her..so i just ignore her..'..what a gd way 2 just avoid and ignore..yes im an emo freak..yes i ONLY talk/ask bout the same old thing..ONLY talk/ask bout the same person..is that y im a major turn-off?..im facin stress/pressure at work too..and yet others treat me as if i dun have feelings..when i cry..does any1 see?..does any1 know?..no..to them..i wont cry..im strong etc etc..none sees me at all..

its best to just shut my mouth..just stop talkin so freakin much..how i feel isnt important anymore...cuz the thing now is..no1 cares..no1 bothers anymore....

你们已看不到我了...

-im standing here im always here
im not going anywhere
do you see me at all?
can you see me at all?

do you wana see me at all?

我不会胜过一个你无法忘掉的她

我无法胜过一个已在你心里的她

你是不会看到我流泪

没有人会看到我流泪

只因为没有人会在乎

*all pics from Black and white's tumblelog

0121

我知道在你心里你还爱着她..
也知道在你心里没有我..
你不用管我也不用理我..
两年后再和她走下去..
只有她可以令你更辛福更开心..
对不起我只是要你开心..
对不起我心已放不下其他人..
处了你..
对不起我已爱上你..

2359

1st pic- would love to have this cute moody soft toy..looks just like me!..

2nd pic-am waiting for this movie..

3rd pic-a view i'd love to have every night when lyin in my bed..

4th pic-is the world comin to an end?..

*pics from msn.com,yahoo.com,tumblelog

只要你开开心心..

只要看到你的笑容..

就可以了..

就算在你心里的她不是我..

我还是会在这默默地支持你..

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你会看得到我的努力吗?..

你会感觉得到吗?..

很多话想对你说但又说不出..

i duno how to fill this emptiness you are feeling..and it makes me feel very useless and helpless...

it makes me sad knowin u feel empty and lonely..

*all pics from black and white's tumblelog

2359

Finished watchin this old-school anime 'Candy candy'..it sure brings back alot of memories..watched the series on tv way way back..watched it again when i found it in Youtube..last week bought the whole series as it was on discount..call me childish or whatever..but i do love anime..i dont think its only for children..as there are things about life to learn in anime..take 'Candy candy' for example..even though she been through alot..she still try 2b a cheerful helpful gal..she still try 2b positive..this a trait we have 2 learn in life no?..2b positive cheerful and helpful..yes i admit im no good in bein positive..no1 can beat me in begin negative..its true..which is y people say im emo..oh well..

dun u just like masks?..i do..love to bits..every1 in life has a number of masks they wear..is it 2 protect themselves so others cant hurt them?..or is it just for show?..wearin masks i mean..

many things people only see from the surface..sometimes things arent what it appears 2b..sometimes things are simple..its our minds and what others say..that make it complicated..make it confusing..yes its alwaz easy to just open your mouth and say..it takes alot of determination courage to ACTUALLY do it..esp when comes to love..yes i do know its better i dont think about it anymore..just let it flow..im tryin..i really am..but the thing is..am i tryin hard enough?..im still learnin 2 understand him..im still learnin 2 show him prove 2 him..im not what i appear 2b..what others may say about me..but the thing is..does he notice im tryin?..does he wanna notice im tryin?..

i just miss him alot..miss those happy moments those happy times..

你要相信你的负出是看得到的

你要相信自己

不要去管人家说啥

你要加油!

*all pics from deviatart

2356

1st pic- my dream home always..never mind if one day the sea decided to turn ugly..and pull me way down into the sea-bed..

2nd pic-a white rose for 小巨人..if i can find a black rose..its much better

3rd n 4th pics-aint they just sooooooooooo cute!?...wish i have that cute cute cat..

yes i know this post is rather random..anyway hope u like the lovely pics..

只要想到小巨人..再多苦都撑得住..

*1st n 2nd pics-tumblelog

3rd n 4th pics-the animal blog