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-dont go..dont go..

-come with me and listen to what the stars are saying?..

-a glittering black rose just for u..

There's a musical box
playing softly in here
can u hear it?
are u able to?
do u want to?

It's always in here
waiting wishing
some-one to notice it to treasure it
waiting wishing
u would

It remains inside here
every-one forgets about it
it remains inside here
no-one willing to open it

My musical box is playing

can u hear me?

*all pics from kari-shma tumblelog

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-the same expression i wana do whenever im face with troublems..unhappiness etc..

-im not this strong gal almost every-one thinks i am..i do want some-one to hold my hand..tell me its gonna be ok..im just human..after all..

-a word i keep telling my mind..trying hard to shut it up..trying hard to be numb..trying hard not to feel as much..i duno why..but lately been losing the will to live..no..im not talking about killing myself..i wont have the guts to do so anyway..its just..i duno why im here..in this place..doing what im doing..i duno what is there left to fight for in life anymore..it seems like..no matter what i do..is not enough..its liked..im not trying hard enough..i duno how to make an effort..i duno am i making enough effort..and i dont wana give up..just like that..im losing sleep..

-'stay..dont go..plz..stay..i need you here..' these words..when will i have the courage to say to you?..

*1st and 2nd pics from the animalblog

*4gotten where i get the last pic..my bad..

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-yes i needed this..

-times like this..i wish i could turn into bubbles..and just be blown away..vanish..vanish..be gone..

-Im walking in circles

round and round

no begining no end

All is dark

i cant see

where is everybody?

why am i alone here?

Is there even some-one

i could really turn to?

is there a hand

to hold me through?

Im walking in circles

round and round

*all pics from kari-shma tumblr

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-Little broken butterflies
flying out from within of me
wanting wishing to be there with you

I'm calling out to you
can you hear me?


-these two words i've said to you..what i wana tell you is more than just words..words alone cant express what my heart wanna tell you..stay..plz dont go..stay..

-often i ask myself why i started this blog..true it serves as an outlet for me..to pen down when im sad..it serves as an outlet for me to write my poems..but..really..why i started this blog?..

words alone cant truly express my feelings..nowadays i dun really wana talk much too..cuz it seems every-one around me is busy..no time for me..i suppose its mostly cuz they are sick and tire of hearin my constant whining..my constant complaining..

*1st pic-deviantart.com
forgotten where i got 2nd and 3rd pics..sorry..

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-love this pic..alwaz make me smile a little..

-does any-one knows where i can get black roses?..

-when you think too much..it'd feel as if you've been walkin round and round in foggy weather..with an umbrella..sometimes(or shall i say..most of the times?) its not cuz you wanna think..your mind just start to generate these thoughts..sometimes something happen..and you start to think..i admit..i think alot..alot of nonsense..few had told me ' dun think too much..' i know and understand..sometimes when others seem to be hiding something from you..they may mean well..cuz they dun wana hurt you..or they duno how to break the news out to you..so they chose to hide it..or/and..they tell you ' dun think too much..' to be honest..i'd rather have the truth told to me..than havin it hide from me..i really dun like the feeling..knowin others are hiding something from me..how i deal with whatever is being told..is my business..not theirs..

so..just shoot me with the truth..cuz im not born yesterday..and in-case you dun know..you are already hurting me..when you chose not to tell me...

*1st pic-4gotten where i got it from..my bad..

*2nd pic-deviant ART

*3rd pic-black and white's tumblelog

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-Won't it be good for me
if i dont know how to think
won't it be good for me
if i haven't been born at all

I dont know anything anymore
all i know is i love you
thats all i know

-我只在乎你..你知道吗?..我还能说啥?..

*pics from Black and white's tumblelog

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-I found the words and say to you
not asking for an answer
not asking for anything
i just want these words out
even its already much too late

You may laugh at me
or even say i do not know what love is
you may say i don't even understand you
do you understand yourself?

I love you
it is what it is
i know very well
cuz i am me

Just me