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1st pic- would love to have this cute moody soft toy..looks just like me!..

2nd pic-am waiting for this movie..

3rd pic-a view i'd love to have every night when lyin in my bed..

4th pic-is the world comin to an end?..

*pics from msn.com,yahoo.com,tumblelog

只要你开开心心..

只要看到你的笑容..

就可以了..

就算在你心里的她不是我..

我还是会在这默默地支持你..

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你会看得到我的努力吗?..

你会感觉得到吗?..

很多话想对你说但又说不出..

i duno how to fill this emptiness you are feeling..and it makes me feel very useless and helpless...

it makes me sad knowin u feel empty and lonely..

*all pics from black and white's tumblelog

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Finished watchin this old-school anime 'Candy candy'..it sure brings back alot of memories..watched the series on tv way way back..watched it again when i found it in Youtube..last week bought the whole series as it was on discount..call me childish or whatever..but i do love anime..i dont think its only for children..as there are things about life to learn in anime..take 'Candy candy' for example..even though she been through alot..she still try 2b a cheerful helpful gal..she still try 2b positive..this a trait we have 2 learn in life no?..2b positive cheerful and helpful..yes i admit im no good in bein positive..no1 can beat me in begin negative..its true..which is y people say im emo..oh well..

dun u just like masks?..i do..love to bits..every1 in life has a number of masks they wear..is it 2 protect themselves so others cant hurt them?..or is it just for show?..wearin masks i mean..

many things people only see from the surface..sometimes things arent what it appears 2b..sometimes things are simple..its our minds and what others say..that make it complicated..make it confusing..yes its alwaz easy to just open your mouth and say..it takes alot of determination courage to ACTUALLY do it..esp when comes to love..yes i do know its better i dont think about it anymore..just let it flow..im tryin..i really am..but the thing is..am i tryin hard enough?..im still learnin 2 understand him..im still learnin 2 show him prove 2 him..im not what i appear 2b..what others may say about me..but the thing is..does he notice im tryin?..does he wanna notice im tryin?..

i just miss him alot..miss those happy moments those happy times..

你要相信你的负出是看得到的

你要相信自己

不要去管人家说啥

你要加油!

*all pics from deviatart

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1st pic- my dream home always..never mind if one day the sea decided to turn ugly..and pull me way down into the sea-bed..

2nd pic-a white rose for 小巨人..if i can find a black rose..its much better

3rd n 4th pics-aint they just sooooooooooo cute!?...wish i have that cute cute cat..

yes i know this post is rather random..anyway hope u like the lovely pics..

只要想到小巨人..再多苦都撑得住..

*1st n 2nd pics-tumblelog

3rd n 4th pics-the animal blog

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finally the movie 'Public Enemies' is showin here..no..i havent watch it yet..but will do so soon..have always like Johnny Depp's movies..i really admire him cuz despite the fact..hes one dashing man..hes not one who uses his good looks to get 2b where he is now..most of the times the characters he portrays..we dont getta see his face..and at times we dont even know its him at all..if not for the credits..am waiting for another of his movie 'Alice in wonderland'..hope it will be release here soon..

do u have those moments when u have so much 2 say 2 some1..but when u getta see him/her..those words just refuse 2 come out..and make fun of u?..people say 'somethings are better left unsaid'..i dont really agreed..esp when comes to matters of the heart..what im tryin 2 say here is..if u dont say..how will that person knows?..no..i dont mean just blurt out without thinking..u do have 2 think carefully.. of cuz u have 2 take responsibility and the consequences urself..after u say those words..cuz not many people are prepared 2 hear what u may say..even though u mean well..thats human beings..there are bound 2b misunderstandings between people..which is why i dont really agreed with the saying above..

what do u think?..

*1st pic from the animal blog.tumblr

*2nd-5th pics from yahoo

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yes i've been abandoned..been 'kicked out'..and i've no idea why..or what i done/said..to be treated this way..i just know some-thing is off..i just know they are hiding some-thing from me..and i will never know..im thinking too much?..im being too sensitive too emo?..no..i dun think so..when people start to treat u totally different..when people start to stop talking much to u..u just know something isnt right..u just know they are hiding something from u..

aint friends suppose to look-out for one another?..i guess i've been so naive..thinking they are my friends..and i could turn to them..when i needed a listening ear..i guess they are sick and tire of hearing me talking about a certain some1..and thus..start to avoid me..start to avoid talking to me..and slowly abandoned me..'kicked me out' of the loop..

no..i dun blame any1..just blame myself..they are not the problem..i am..always have been..i really dun know what i've done/said..to be treated this cold way..and if its really my fault..im sorry..

will any1 knows..or even cares i've been crying almost every night?..will any1 knows or cares..i've been missing him so much?..

no..no1 knows..no1 give a damn........

its my 100th post..and yet..its not a happy topic.......

*all pics from black and white's tumblelog

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pics of beautiful wolf....of cute cats..and of cuz daunting gothic pic..i juz love the gothic pic..do u?...which pic is your favourite?....

havent been in the mood to blog..again..juz wana be left alone after work..which explains why i put my status as 'appear off-line' when im on msn..simply cuz i dont wana end up saying things that offended people..and we end up quarrelling over some stupid meaningless things..simply cuz im tire..very tire..the more i dun wana hear anything..the more i will..the more people wana tell me 'bout it talk 'bout it..

我已很累了...我不想听了...

*1st pic via deviantArt

*2nd-5th pics via theanimal.blog