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Play Dead

Hook me up on some medication

take me down like a light

have me coming back for more

Paint my nails n lips black

my thinking askew

they put me on some medication

have me coming back for more

Have me on a leash

im submissive

have me on a leash

an uncontrollable mind

Im at wars within myself

cant u see

a battle-field stays in my head

Hearing voices telling me to stop

udo all my evil doings

clasp my hands tightly

rocking slowly

yUp another poem written last year..hmm dun really like the endin bit..but had no idea how to end/edit it..so gonna jz leave it as it is..for now..ya me day off had changed to wed..not knowin y though..maybe it'll change again..after LABO launch..lets wait n see..

finished readin 'Undead n Uneasy'..waitin for the 7th novel..thought that was the last..but somehow the story seem 2b hangin there..m happy knowin its not over..yet..whats the story bout?..its actually a chic-lit vampire series..n its damn damn funny!!..

does any1 believe in fate/past life?..was chattin wif a friend last night n what he said had me thinkin bout fate/past life..i duno mann..its not so much i believe in fate/past life or not..but i cant explain why an event happened over n over..yes if it happen 1-2 times..thats coincidence..but more than 3 times?..do u call it fate then?..what if its true im here to pay back to him what i owned him in our past life?..what if im wrong thinkin dis way?...i really duno..n its seriously messin up my mind...

wOw cant believe dis is my 50th post!!..well thkx to every1 takin time to read n comment..i appreciate it..lots..thank u once again =)..

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fInally can get away from work 2day..had been tiring not havin enough zz past few days..though went clubbin with my friend on friday..but didnt njoy myself..think its time to take a break from clubbing..again..maybe it'd help..maybe not..who knows?..

heres a clip from Youtube..its really hilarious!!..thkx to James for sharing..

Break

Teach me to break away
escape from this pain
away from this hurt

Teach me to break away
so i can join the human race
without a care to this world
away from this hurt

Teach me to break away
and not cry anymore
these tears have drainned me
flood me from within

My heart in your hand
yet i can still feel its pain
teach me to break away

Anybody

a poem i wrote earlier this year..do tell me what u think of it..

'i was invitin..hurry to my heart..'
'he was my night time..thought i was his star..guess i was wrong..'

'only gonna play the fool one time..'-from the song'Go on Gal' by Ne-yo

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Black Parade

Memory deleted face erased

soul captured a band marching on

an orchestra in the night

through the fire down the streets

marching on

carry on

Hear me sing a chill composed in the night

a darkened soul haunting

hear me sing as the orchestra keeps playing

come join me

close your eyes n join me

Under this night

along this path

to a land none heard of

marches on carry on

soul captured

an orchestra in the night

another poem written last year..its scary how time flies..2008 is comin to an end soon..is it jz me or every1 is the same?..i mean do u tenda reflect what hav u done how hav u grown in this time of the year?..i do..n i think alot which isnt very healthy some might say..cuz if ur not careful it can drive u mad!..ya..well i roughly know what i wanna do next year..i may not be happy..but i'll definitively be happy finally havin my own life back..wil be happy finally out of this house..do i sound confusing?..haha..life is a bitch baby!!..oh well..

here i wann thank Mariposa for leavin those lovely comments..she really motivates me to blog..thank u =>..

*i still love u..yes i know this isnt what u wanna hear from me..im sorry*

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bAck from company stupid staff gathering..nothing much..juz had buffet borin games followed by lucky draw..nope urs truly didnt get any prize..my only prizes r the door gift n gd food..yup the food were gd esp the waffles(luv it luv it!) n the japanese food..oh yes the coffee black was gd too..haha..did i njoy myself?..not really..the whole event is juz borin n kinda waste of time..

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iTs true..didnt think any-one would read my blog leave comments..n i have 2 followers!!..dats really wow..thkx to every1 for their lovely comments =)..heres another 2 poems..wrote 'Self' last night b4 i went to lala land wif my sexy pillows.. i juz had this image of me pointin a gun at myself..how weird is that?..'Red teddy' was written last year..my friend used 2 say my poems r diffcult to understand..well it doesnt matter..cuz thats the way poems should be no?..haha..the same goes to drawings n such..its not so much whether any1 gets what ur drivin at..n it really doesnt matter what others think or say or feel bout ur works..dats the beauty of arts n even fashion..both allows u 2b unique..

Red Teddy

Pin her down with your venom

such an innocent child

she has died a thousand times

why cant u see

Ghostly whisperings she hears

incurable disease

cold hands reachin to her heart

shivering she gives in to her fears

Poison by the phantom's knife

slash it over n over

her teddy bear she holds

as cold wind wraps her soul

Another time she is dead

venom in her head

poison by phantom's knife

another time shes flyin high

Self

I stand behind me

with a gun pointin self

what r u gonna do

when i pull the trigger

what will u do

Here i m standin behind me

a swiss army knife in hand

what r u gonna do

when i stab me

what will u do

Movin a step back

have no fear

nothing will stop me

standin behind myself

Movin a step back

where r u goin now

pOems

Angel In The Night

An angel in the night
sitting waiting
one with broken heart
bleeding screaming

Pool of blood
swimming waiting
feathers on her wing she pluck
smiling rocking

Unrequited love
withering breaking
down the valley
falling twisting

Haunted by fear
an angel in the night
sitting waiting

Drown

Cold as ice u pull me in
without a sound take me down

My eyes met yours filled with tears
scream out loud take me down

Over n over this reply
watch it a thousand times
your hands r stained
take me down

Close the lid eyes wide open
cold as ice
put me down

2 of my past poems i wrote last year 'Angel in the night' n 'Drown'..my gdness its been such a long time i havent put on poem writin cap..is it cuz i had somehow freeze my heart so im unable 2 feel anymore?..i do not know the answer...well more poems comin up...

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jUz finished watchin F1..very excitin race..full of twists n turns n dramas..well methink its gd way for the world gettin to know Singapore through this F1 event..many people thought S'pore is in China..*faint*..china is china..s'pore is not in china plz people..though its juz a barely there dot..s'pore isnt in china or anywhere..*sighs*..anyway here r some pics of the F1 1st night race..njoy!