jAp wave

wAs way too lazy to go out 2day even though its my day off..so jz stayed at home watched my fav anime 'Cardcaptor Sakura' series wif Muji snack...didnt really do anything(was 2 lazy remember?..U_u;)..but 're-created' my two pairs of wide legged old jeans..haha!!..havent wear them for awhile but they r 2 comfy to giv away..so i cut off the length on both..n cut some designs on them too..wel the end results aint too bad..n im quite please wif meself..might b goin to 're-create' my tops next week..i duno..see how my mood goes.. oh ya..thinkin of buyin Dr Marten boots..hav 2 see how oso..



as promise heres 2 mtvs by japanese singer-Namie Amuro n LunarSea a disbanded japanese group..njoy!!

tAlented Japanese

lOss for words when watchin dis awesome clip..these japanese kids r really very talented/creative!..am most impressed by the 1st group of gals..they r truly gd..i wonder how many hours of pratice these kids put in...

Utada Hikaru..my all-time fav japanese singer..these 3 songs r from her old album 'Deep River'..do check out her mtv..esp on 'Travelling' n 'Sakura Drops'..

F.L.I.p n a poem-Empty Shell

sOme1 told me once 'when ur so sad n u cant shed a single tear..dats the day u start to feel numb..dats the day u hav reached the xteme end of bein sad'..i used to think how can one not cry when one is sad?..but now i finally understand...cz it happened to me...

seein dat my so-called friends arent willin to listen arent willin to meet(remember i mentioned they r sick of me bein upset over some guy?)..i started to keep whatever sadness i hav inside ever since..the final blow came 2wks ago...when i couldnt shed 1 single tear...n i thought i was goin to cry for hours...its liked i dun feel cant feel anything...its liked i lost the ability to feel...its liked my heart my soul had left..n all im left wif...is an empty shell..will u teach me how to cry?......

Empty Shell

Heart in your hand u crashed
drop it like u do not care
break it like u do not care
walk away keep on walkin away

An empty shell u left
to become numb
is this how u want me to
walk away keep on walkin away

My tears had given up on me
sadness no longer visit me
a hollow shell is me
walk away keep on walkin away

Tears heart soul
u taken away
empty shell
becomes me

7 ate 9

nO i didnt say i dun wan 2b in a long term relationship..i jus dun wan 2b in one when i hav no romantic feelings for some1..yes i know feelings can be develop..cal me stubborn or whaever..when i dun hav feelings mean i dun hav..its not so much not wantin to giv myself or other(s) a chance..i jus dun wana force a r/s..yes i know many say im too picky..m i?..when i love some1 i giv my ALL..its no gd i know..cz i hurt myself very easily like dat..

its not i dun wan 2b in a r/s....i do....

.....pu tuhs

i gues almost every1 is sick n tire of me alwaz bein upset over some guy..me alwaz dis way is makin them avoid/ignore talkin to me..b it on-line or sms..its either they say they r busy..or they simply dun reply me..no i dun think im bein sensitive here..its rather obvious when others avoid/ignore talkin to u or whatever..

i suppose now its best i juz shut up..keep whaeva im upset bout(whether its work or over some guy) to myself..jz shut up..since none is willin to listen anymore....

Leash- a poem

Leash-a poem

They have me on a leash
an invisible line n u cant see
im here standing breathing
im here breathing always
can u see me at all?

They have me on a leash
too dark blue to be cut loose
stains from previous hurt
stains that cant be wash away

They have me on a leash
marked with tattoos
marked with stains from the past
stains that crawl from within

They have me on a leash
nobody can see
i am here breathing waiting
waiting for some-one to cut me loose

Waiting to be set free
waiting to spread my disease

gReenies to go ^^